{ this aint a love story, it's a tragedy }

girl met boy.boy fell for the girl.boy left the girl.

guess i will write about it later..i got writer's block all of sudden.chewah.i just could not bring myself to write about it.makes me asking my own rationality.why now?i dunno

not much money left for shopping.sigh

school: exam mode
figuring out where to be this weekend.i know for sure if i stayed here, i'll be dead out of boredom.the jaya jusco in one utama is having clearance sale due to the closing of the store soon.gosh i missed it.what a shame
i see ikea meatballs glistening before my eyes.but not so certain about that yet.
but most probably.we'll see

{ once bitten twice shy? }

we loved each other
we missed each other

i screwed up
u screwed up
we quarreled
we stopped seeing each other

recently i discovered
we actually still love each other
oh i am so glad

i just hope
even with a little doubt
we could go back to
how we used to be

but i am not going to
expect too highly
ah i am worried

love is such
a mystery

ps: please please please kamu jgn tanya (baca ikut nada lagu alif aziz)

{ i wish everything was a lil easier }

{ my weekend }

is not so happening.this is the first weekend i stay here at home after moving in ths new house.i was either at kampung or in kl.
after subuh prayer.normally on weekdays i would plan for myself to get extra sleep in the morning on weekends but it seems that that always failed to happen. yeah that cudnt happen since our daily routine is getting up early to get ready for work.to most people, this seems normal i mean to overly sleep on weekends, but not for me.i don't know why.sigh.but, on a brighter note, i cud do extra work yeah?besides, tak bagus tido lepas subuh kn?.tp kalu xbangun for subuh tu, xdpt nk nolong la.hehe

hari yg indah.tp mcm nk hujan

so,, ape yg dibuat sepanjang hujung mggu ni ye?semalam lps subuh, kemas rumah especially my own bedroom, did 2 rounds of laundry, and the rest of it, surfing the internet.hehe.the best part is had dinner with archangel at golf country and club,haha.we had grilled chicken and honey grilled chicken wings.yummy.continued the hang out at her place, surfing the internet again..n did some serious talk.

and today, after subuh, did another set of laundry (wah bnyknya baju kotor.hehe).and, managed to fall asleep while waiting for archangel to reply to my text message.hehe.it was a bliss.waarghhh.yawnn, awakened by her call asking me to have lunch together.

and tonight, after talking on the phone with my sister, she's busy preparing for her engagement event soon.it got me pretty sad when thnking abt losing fun and single sister-partner.nevertheless, that's her call.mine hopefully will come soon..and here i am scribbling thgs here.people might get bored reading ths.haha.and suddenly terpandang pd a stack of papers at he corner of my room.holly crap, i totally forgot.i am supposed to mark the exam papers for God's sake.aiyoo.and to write the record book too which has 2weeks of pending lesson plans.haha.i did promise to myself to get it done last friday.looks like i'm going to have extra tasks this week.whew.dan mkn malam mlm ini hanya lah secawan ovaltine bersama kek coklat yg dibeli 2 hari lepas.huu.

housemate masih belum pulang dari kuala lumpur.

ada beberapa perkara yg aku idamkan utk berlaku.
1.signal 3G lebih kuat di kwsn rumah ini.
2.punya lebih bnyk waktu dalam sehari utk menyelesaikan tugas2/kerja2 termasuklah membaca blog wlupn sepanjang hari bukanlah mahu menyelesaikn kerja itu pon.hehe
3.semangat utk bersenam.dah lama badan ni tak mengeluarkan peluh.huu

kesimpulannya, weekend ini masa hanya dihabiskan utk melayari internet dan membaca blog orang.bloghopping is awesome.hehe.

ok, catatan seterusnya mgkn tdk berapa sesuai utk entri kali ini, tp mahu menulisnya juga.doa saya,

"Ya Allah, seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawasanya urusan ini adalah baik bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, takdirkanlah ia bagiku dan permudahkanlah serta berkatlah bagiku padanya dan seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawa urusan ini mendatangkan keburukan bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, maka jauhkanlah aku daripadanya dan takdirkanlah kebaikan untukku dalam sebarang keadaan sekalipun kemudian redhailah aku dengannya".

quote from sue.anna.joe;

"Sometimes we are too busy looking at the lives of others, we fail to realize how beautiful our own lives are."

which is a good reminder for me since i always admire (and envy) the life of others..
til the next entry,

.:happy working everyone:.

{ because i love exam weeks~ }

right?

because i'm a teacher.lazy one.yea,truth hurts.ouch.not that i'm proud to be one.it's just lazy by nature.lol.but..i am the most willing person to improve.well,not entirely.maybe at times.wait.this is not what i planned to start with this entry.oh no~

i'd like to emphasize that i luurvvve exam weeks not only because i do not have to go to class and teach and educate and nag and spank the students, but also...i get extra time to go online!!hahaha.and.and i can sleep late at night stalking, chatting, copying, mocking, etc.and wake up the next day unpanic because with swollen eyes i can still manage to stay cool and presentable at skool since no teaching to do!ahaha.woh.excitednye.and the fact that we don't punch in our arrivals at werkplace.wat's awesomer than that?u tell me~ ;D

anyways,both me n hunny (housemate) are sporting some diet plan.haha.some might find it annoying that we are on diet for God's sake!it happened accidentally i think when i started to slow down on eating since last period (well, a normal thg to me physio) plus i accidentally bought a pair of skinny fit pants from MNG and it fits!initial plan was to get one from GAP.at least i saved a few bucks.itupun nk cite ke.haha.so, hafta maintain the curves y'all!hehe.so jadila xmkn mlm sejak beberapa malam sudah.wlupn sgt lapa even now.haha.tp sbb malas nk g dapur n beria cari food, baik berlapar.leh kurus.haha lagi.

wlupun hati sebenarnya sedang berduka lara... :'(

tapi, hidup mesti diteruskan dan fikiran mesti positif dan hati kena redha ketentuan Allah.betapa manusia ilmu pengetahuannya sgt terbatas tentang urusan Allah.(tetibe mood tuka jd insaf dan lebih seryes).apa yang kita hajati tak semuanya tercapai dan kita yg jahil mahu mempersoalkan ttg ketidakadilan sedangkan,
kita tidak tahu.kita lupa akan satu rukun iman.percaya kepada qada' dan qadar Allah.sesungguhnya Dia yg mengetahui akan segala-galanya.subhanallah.the least we can do is, pray.Wallahu'alam.

belajarlah untuk redha beep..kebahagiaan hadir pd mereka yg redha~

mata masih belum mengantuk.kwn kt ym tnya soalan yg agak common lately.

"beep xnak pindah sekolah?"

hmm.mmg dh ramai sgt bertanyakan soalan sampai masa ni.tmbh2 hari tu ade satu peluang yg awesome mcm org mengantuk diberikn bantal.so, i take this chance to justify my decision here.

taknak tuka lagi sebab:
1. wanna further studies.tetibe bersemangat waja bersama adlina utk mengisi borang dan sudahpun submit ke institusi itu.*hoping and praying hard to be accepted n to make it thru in time*
2.klu pindah mestila blk kelantan kn.so.dh jauh nk travel to bangi nnt.chewah.

stakat ni itulah alasannya.previous alasan adalah.

1.takut.risau ttg adaptation with nu place.
2.risau ttg nu ppl.
3.sayang. nk tggl sek yg best n sempoi skrg.
4.sayang. nk tggl org2 kt sini.
5.tunggula lepas kawen nnt.ikut je suami.which right now i have NO IDEA when's that gonna happen.

so i hope i am making the right decision considering all stated above.nnt jgn tnya lagi dah okei?hehe

dh pukul 0110hrs.marila tdo.xguna merindukan bulan.ok xde kaitan.kwn tu pn dh xsabar2 nk baca new entry yg agak berjela ni.til then,

goodnite world~yawnn

{ january 2010 }

january has just left us.time really flies isnt it?
my january was full with goods and bads and worst.some things are to keep and some things learnt and some things that can't be forgotten.i am scarred.

what matters most is i just love my best of friends.for always be there during good and bad weather.thanks so much for moral support, for lifting me up when i was down, for reminding me that i always have u, for reaching out your hands for me when i was falling (mcm lagu je)
what would i be without you girls...
.:love to bits:.

when you feel like quitting
what would keep you going