m...confused

thot we were close enough
seems that we are not

on the second thot..i just decided not to make a big deal out of it so, that's it about this entry.sometimes accepting things just the way they are/the way ppl chose them to be that way (i believe there must be reasons behind ppl's decisions) seems to be less hassle..to u n to me.n the entire human race.lalala

risau

hari ni dua org pelajar di sekolahku tidak sihat. dua-dua perempuan, f3 n f5.sorang demam.sorang lg selsema teruk bersin non-stop.guru bertugas hantar diorg balik rumah.kisahnya kedua-dua pelajar ini berjiran dengan seorang pelajar sm sains raub yg pulang bercuti kerana sekolah tersebut telah ditutup kerana H1N1.dan pelajar itu pun telah dijangkiti virus itu juga setelah beberapa hari.yang pelajar aku ni pegi plak melawat kawan yang sakit.haiya...

haih. aku mula risau.
kena gi beli face mask asap.

argh give me a break!

on virtual chat with some studied-abroad-for-7 years-guy.ah c'mon

van helsing: dok kadok ratam mano?
me: ratamm??? (wat is the??)
van helsing: belah mana
me: ohh (geng carok mana la ni.hisyyy)

xxxxxxx

van helsing: umo brp?
me: 26
van helsing: nmpk mcm bini org
me: (wtf!) right..thanx a lott

seriously, don't even try to get to know me, saves the sweat.
piss off

my first banner design

papi is opening a cyber cafe.with her partner.i know this is quite a big news but m not here to tell the story.go ask her urself ya.
i got the honour to design the banner for her cc.

and the banner.they altered the logo tho

n my nose flareddd.haha

way to go pup.good luck!

apology accepted

i feel bad. as a matter of fact, i hv been feeling it since Sunday.my best friend was getting engaged the other day and i only congratulated her this morning.how could i? u might be asking the same question.i know.i have no idea.close friends know this syndrome of mine.not calling/texting ppl during critical time?who would forgive that?but, oftentimes, there are reasons for that matter.other times, there still are reasons.

earlier.
i texted her

me : hey darling. i just wanna congratulate u on ur engagement.was it lovely?(innocently asking)
her : thanx.alhadulillah.im just happy with how things went.i'll be in kl tmrrw. (not usual her.oh flip flipper n flipping hell!)
me : (knowing she's pissed by instinct n trying to act cool) Alhamdulillah. i couldn't be more happy for u.i'm sorry i didn't contact u earlier.(fingers crossed)
her : it's ok.sedih la jgk sket2.T_T
me :(alamak) I knew it. n i'm sorry for not contacting u earlier.i just cudn't justify myself..bla3..

she didn't reply.i'm freaked out.

me : i'm sorry 2009.i lov u.huhu
her : no la syg..i love u so much
me : (yayy) dat's the biggest relief!tq dear

Isn't she the sweetest?are we lesbians?no.we are sisters bonded by love n sweet memories (wth?no idea) isn't that lovely how ppl can forgive easily. i think dat's a wise thg to do tho.hehe.and me, always screwed up.hissyyy!teruk btol.

p/s: i love ya.big fat kiss

my thinking cap

am thinking...actually there's a lot of thinking to be done this year..
especially this one..maybe being nice not always a good idea..

an update

 I was away for a while
But I'm hoping someday you'll forgive me
Though I don't deserve it
I'll cherish it well if you give me one of your new starts

Just one more last chance
I swear that I'll earn it
If you front me for now
I'm good for it I swear
I'm better now I swear

In earlier days, they'd persecute people
They'd carry them off, and hobble their legs
For lesser offenses, and how I have harmed you
And still you allow me to walk free of pain

Though I punish myself
I will never settle
The debts I've incured for scorning the face
Of absolute beauty, and measureless grace
And though I once mocked you
I'm dying to pay for it now
I'm dying to pay for it now

So hand me the rocks to help weigh me down
And tether my legs with a cord tightly bound
To the end of an anchor thrown into the sound
And test me to see if I will rise against the worst that it can get

I wasn't well for a while
I savored the things that I knew were sure to destroy me
And that seemed to hold me
That seemed to carry me where I couldn't go
On the strength of my own
Well, I should've known
That gets me nowhere
I've learned that now I swear

In earlier days, they'd persecute people
They'd carry them off, and hobble their legs
For lesser offenses, and how I have harmed you
And still you allow me to walk free of pain

Though I punish myself
I will never settle
The debts I've incured for scorning the face
Of absolute beauty, and measureless grace
And though I once mocked you
I'm dying to pay for it now
I'm dying to pay for it now, now, now

So hand me the rocks to help weigh me down
And tether my legs with a cord tightly bound
To then end of an anchor thrown into the sound
And test me to see if I will rise against the worst that it can get

Well, I wasn't sure that I could
Well, I wasn't sure that I could
Well, I wasn't sure that I could
But, I can

i'm not really that worried

i like pink's latest single.
and been listening to this time too, too many times,just like its movie

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had three real nice, warm, brought-smiles-and-lotsa-laughter phone conversations yesterday.happiness. seems that ppl are worried abt me.i dunno hw to put my thots n feelings into words.the least that i could say is, this is just the journey that Allah had planned for me, to the destination which i dunno where would it lead me to, but the fact that i picked up so many valuable things along the way, i cudn't be more than grateful. i wish i was more certain about everything.n the fact that somebody accuses me of being weak, little that he knows about what i really need.i'm not looking for someone perfect, i'm just waiting for someone right, that i will know by heart.i can list a million things about the criteria and whatnots, but then again, we can only plan.but i'm not worried.i believe Allah has an awesome plan for me.n i know that the right one is out there making his way to me...n when he arrives, i believe it wouldn't be any hard for me to decide.at this point of life i realize that love is just an ideal thing.marriage is a real thing.so i'm just gonna take some time to get there.

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"happiness lies for those who cried, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried"

someday i'll have to say goodbye

so lovely

hunny n fuffy

had them both here in jerantut last weekend.felt alive again.had quite cheeky time. haha.lov u girls!

perking up me mood

laptop skin dat resembles me blog layout.hah, i'm lovin it!

:nine west:

i'm in need to buy new shoes.nine west is pretty pricey but the shoes are just gorgeous...i'm so saving up.but then i dont wear hi heels anymore.the desire died a natural death i cudnt remember when exctly.i even have a fair of hi heels that are still in the box,clean.it felt weird being the tallest person at work.n the fact that the male population has grown vertically challenged nwadays, my hi heels have been thrown out of the window long time ago.what a shame!

doubtless

"Never cry if something
good is over
but smile because it happened"

- Tuan Beep

this monday is so blue...

i'm sleepy...i just dozed off during the assembly luckily i didn't fell off the chair...my skin is dry..i have puffy eyes..my head is aching...i'm hungry but don't feel like eating coz the canteen operator are serving the same menu every monday and i'm sick of it already...but the principal is not here so i'm quite happy...

n i'm wearing blue today...n i so wanna sleep...i wanna sleep my mind off everything and wake up next year..n i wish some things never happened...then i think i'll be much happier..i miss the happier days i used to have.