{ nursing }

 Assalamualaikum and good day.
alhamdulillah, 6 days ahead and Qamarina will turn 2 months old.I'm happy and sad at the same time watching her grow.i suppose all mamas feel the same way too, how we wish that her step by step progress could be recorded and we can watch it over and over again.first I was so worried about her umbilical cord that was hanging on her tummy, and i accidentally pulled it when fixing her dress for 3 times, 3 times! and she cried so loud!that was really a scary experience.i guess she was just terkejut, not in pain.the next thing i know she's now wearing size M diapers.wow, she's grown so fast!

I managed to breastfeed her for 40 days, fully.it was really a beautiful experience.sadly however, we have been feeding her with formula nowadays.sobs.my mom always says that Qamarina feeds like a baby boy.she suckles like there's no tomorrow making them nipples cracked and bleeding and painful!!.it's true what they say, breastfeeding requires a very high level of patience and i don't possess that.sigh.

it's sad i must say, so i will start keeping my milk in bottles from now on.but first, i need to get storage bottles.well i just want to experience every bit of motherhood as much as possible at its best and be the best mom to little Qamarina.insyaAllah.

 

i missed the first month with Qamarina already!the hair, the spits, the rashes on the face, the umbilical cord, the swaddle. :( ah sangat beremosi

 

the helps.avent breast pump is really convenient i must say. and Nuby bottle given by brother in law is pretty awesome. we can actually shift the flow level on the teat.

so i just hope to continue Bf Qamarina even through bottles coz mommy's milk is the best.have a good day every one.

{ for the soul }

{ wordless wednesday }

{ life so far }

has been awesome.

Alhamdulillah

{ rewards }

This post is to Qamarina.it's our 40th day today, the last day of confinement.yay we made it..ok, at least i haven't had iced drink.hehe.so, i hope it's not too much to reward myself and baby with a little bling-bling after 9 months of hard times and that u have been a good girl all this while. I hope u like it.mwah.

{ new year 2012 }

may every body be better in every way this year.insyaAllah

{ giving birth }

Assalamualaikum n hello
alhamdulillah, i feel complete now being a mother to a very beautiful baby, Qamarina.conceiving her for 39 weeks is worth every pain that i had to endure.yes, i have to admit and be honest here, it was so painful i never imagined that the contraction is that painful (sakaratulmaut is beyond imagination).but alhamdulillah i only had to 'suffer' for 2 hours n 30 mins until she was out of my womb.

25th Nov 2011, friday. i started to feel menstrual-like pain around 2pm and i just ignored it at first. after one hour, it grew stronger and i called my sister telling her and she told me that's the sign and i should get going to the hospital already but dun really have to rush because the first labour normally takes long hours to arrive. so i called hubby and he rushed back home, luckily the workplace is near.

we reached PPUKM at 6pm, at around 6.30 to 7pm i had 3cm opening and was taken to the ward.the doctor came and told me that he will check the opening again at 10.30pm.okei, i will take my sweet time waiting then.Pi's mom and his sister came around 8pm and Ma managed to give me 'ubat selusuh' and i swallowed them straight away, yeahh.so everybody wished and prayed for me well then i started to feel nervous.

10.30pm.the doctor came as promised to check the cervix opening and it was 5cm dilated, doc broke the water then i was pushed to the labour room right away.i try not to recall what happened in the labour room, i thought it was the hardest situation i have ever had..the meanest pain..but i cannot be more grateful to Allah for giving me this experience of becoming a mother, and having the most loving husband next to me.

 

the baby came out at 1.08am.she is perfect, was 3.32kg and 49cm long.it felt awkward at first, looking at this little human being, who has most of my features though i secretly wished that she would inherit her father's brown eyes but she doesn't.she has mine, dark. she has Pi's long eyelashes, my nose and lips.we named her Qamarina, initial plan was to put Nik but it is no longer applicable nowadays and it baffled me but no point of arguing over this.anyways, suddenly life seems to be complete and i know it's a long way to go, raising Qamarina.i'm still being traumatized by the experience so second child is out of the question.

it's official.i now cannot live without these 2 people. Qamarina and her abah.i love u forever.

{ mommy }

26th nov 2011..after so much pain, struggle, screams, du'a continuously from hubby, all family members, friends, i finally become the mother to this sweet little baby girl, Qamarina. there's so much to share about the experience..later i guess.

the photo (above) was taken on 28th nov when my forever beloved friend, Aifaa together with her husband, Amar and their lil princess baby Airaa came to visit us in Puncak Jalil.tq so much dear.hope to see u more often in the future.hugs and kisses frm both of us.
xoxo

{ on standby }

gamba ni ambik minggu lepas sambil boring2 tggu Pi balik keje.38 minggu, 9 bulan lebih dah ni, tapi ligat lagi bejalan sana sini, Jusco la, ikea la, nursery bunga la..sebab mmg jenis kuat bejalan hehe.alhamdulillah masih larat lagi..solat berdiri, kemas2 rumah, baca Quran (jarang2 klu x kena paksa ngn Pi keke)..bukan apa, bila dah sarat, kita jadi cepat semput..atau lebih suka ngadap intenet je hehe.
tak lama lagi dah ni nak bersalin, kalau ikut due date ada seminggu lagi.semalam dh keluar tanda awal (darah sket) tapi belum ada contraction lagi.masih lepak2 kat rumah..waiting for other signs, all bags are packed and we're just waiting.adeh..sgt nervous and takut and excited.semoga Allah permudahkan dan selamatkan segala-galanya.ameen.aih, wish me luck!

{ family outing: lilac cottage }

lilac cottage is an english home decor shop owned by Pi's sister in-law, kak iza (an english teacher like me!)located in bndr baru selayang.it has been operated for almost 6 months and currently is having a clearance sale.sounds awesome?awesome enuff for us not to miss it, we went there yesterday with Pi's sister, kak yang with her whole much lovable family. of course i did buy a few stuff somehow i wish i could get more, but considering we are renting the house, and it would cause us a whole more trouble moving out  when we buy our own house later that is..so i only grabbed things that caught my eyes most.hehe.so if u happen to be looking for some decorative items (at awesome price) for your own home, you might wanna visit this shop and don't forget to mention my name.hehe

{ just me }

 
 it's been three days and counting.unlike other teachers all over the country, who will start their holidays in two more days, i've started early.my pregnancy has reached 37 weeks and i felt it's crucial if i stopped working and take unpaid leaves (since my cuti dh habis), to be with my hubby here in puncak jalil,on standby mode.labour can happen anytime now.besides doing daily chores and watching the clock ticking, waiting for hubby to get back frm work, i still managed to move and locate this and that around the newly rented house to kill the time as well as making things arranged.it's thunder and lightning taking turns outside, rain has poured, soft breeze sneaking into through the slightly opened sliding door bringing the fresh smell of rain.ah..it's so nice being stay-at-home wife despite being so bored and lonely.

{ wordless monday }

{ painting baby cot }

 see the future daddy spray-painting the cot oh so lovingly?

since we opted for the cheapest baby cot frm Ikea (lets not call it cheapskate, we prefer being 'zuhud' nowadays.keke), which comes colorless, i have decided to have it painted so that it would have more dramatic effect for the baby room soon.hehe.we bought 2 cans of spray paint (each costs RM22) from ACE to discover that  a piece of the cot frame needed at least 2 cans of paint for the best result and ok, there are 4 pieces of them, no wonder the painted ones are way more expensive than this nude one.so, Pi rushed to the store and purchased the normal Nippn paint together with brushes and thinner.while spray paint has matte effect, which i prefer, never mind that  nippon paint gives a glossy surface.so here's the result;